Twice today I tried to manipulate God. How crazy is that?
Sorry God, for treating you like an idiot,
like a stock clerk who might give me something if I ask in the right way.
I hope that in the future,
when you give me something (desired or not),
it will provoke in me the awareness of your love
and companionship.
I see now that I am still small and silly enough to do such things
but I am not sure that I can get away with it anymore
now that I start to see what it means.
Not without some shame.
Does it hurt you when people slight you out of ignorance?
How much more when they should know better?
Thank you for your patience.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
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I love this prayer... I find myself talking to God in the same way... Isn't it amazing how we are aware yet blind? Thank You... I especially appreciated
"when you give me something (desired or not),
it will provoke in me the awareness of your love
and companionship."
I try to realize this on a daily basis... I sometimes get distracted... and yes... I should know better
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I rebuke God these days. Can you believe it?
He doesn't react though (Thankfully!), but he doesn't act either (or maybe I'm losing patience). He is immune to my pain, just as he is immune to my happiness.
Hello Syncronicity Diva,
I think of God as being more aware of and sympathetic to my condition than myself.
Pehaps he ignores our sufferings because they are not real. But could he ignore the heart's desire for him to acknowledge us?
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